Express Glasses

Sometimes, I'll wear eye glasses despite my 20/20 vision. There's a reason for this. I cannot maintain eye contact without a barrier between my gaze and whomever meets it with his or her own. At times, it physically hurts me to maintain such communication. That's what eye contact is, standard communication. When I wear my glasses, reality is filtered through their lenses, like a broadcast transmitted by a television screen, and believe me; I can watch t.v. That's just the tip of the iceberg. Once I'm able to maintain eye contact with someone, I lose track of what is being discussed because I cannot decipher mood and nonverbal language while simultaneously following the conversation, which, like all convos I have ever had, easily trails off into a minute-long dud. I suffer from inattentive-ADHD and NLVD, non-verbal learning disorder, which is on the autism spectrum. This blog will be about how I deal with these issues because they have gone undiagnosed throughout my entire life... until now, I thought I was normal, or, how I saw the world, perceived it, interacted with it, is how everyone else did also.

But, somewhere, deep inside my subconscious mind, I must have known something wasn't right, so I went to the mall and bought a pair of glasses that help me see a little clearer; and since then my life has not been the same.